Paradox

miazilla@hotmail.com — Thu, 15 Mar 2007 16:49:57 GMT

I just picked up my birthday parcel. AND I CAN'T OPEN IT YET. WOE. I'll get aaaaaall the goodies tomorrow though! Yayness :D:D:D:D:D

Today I used my bike for the first time this year I am in crazily bad shape. I so need to work out... well not more, I think AT ALL would be an improvement XD

If you haven't seen the the daily show ep from the 13 do it. DO EET NOW! It's SO freaking hilarious. *less than threes Jon*

miazilla@hotmail.com — Mon, 12 Mar 2007 20:34:06 GMT

Uhm. It has recently come to my attantion that people are actually reading this thing so maybe I'll try to update some more. Which probably means less than a week but whatver XD

So I've been on a 'The Ark' kick recently (read veersince they won Melodifestivalen). I lisend to 'The Worrying Kind' for two days straigt and then downloaded 'We Are The Ark' and 'State of The Ark'. I gotta say 'One Of Us Is Gonna Die Young' is brilliant. *loves on The Ark and Ola Salo* We are SO going to kick everyones butt in Eurovision 07. Hlesinki here we come :D

Watched the latest episode of House today (s3e15) and they sooooo made it for the shippers of... pretty much ALL ships in the fandom :D *ish happy* I'll go look for fic now ^^

Yay spammy quizzes! :D

miazilla@hotmail.com — Sun, 13 Aug 2006 18:01:17 GMT

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miazilla@hotmail.com — Sun, 14 May 2006 16:57:02 GMT

'Nother prompt fic. I rock! XD

Title: Rehearsal
Fandom: Popslash (BSB)
Theme no.: 2. The cruellest month
Character(s)/Pairing: Nick/Howie Gen-ish, slash is in the mind of the beholder.
Rating: G
Disclaimer: I don’t know these people. This is fiction, not a recount of things that have actually happened.
Notes: Whoa. More fic. I R impressed by myself XD This is a bit more, well, the prompt is actually makes sense this time. And dialogue. Not much, but hey. I'm working on it. ^^

“Take five!” The choreographer yells and Nick gratefully stops dancing and plops down on the floor nest to Howie who is already drinking from his water bottle. They are all totally exhausted but that's nothing new. The new tour starts in little over a week and there has been too much to do to even stop and breath for weeks now.

Nick really hates the last month or so before a new tour. There's meetings and rehearsals and more meetings. Thousands of little stupid details that has to bee agreed upon but first everyone has to discuss to the point where even Kevin hardly cares any more. He wishes this was all over and done with. Touring is stressful, yes. It's exhausting and filled with things they have to do every second but it's so much better then this.

Touring is familiar, he's been doing that for so long it's almost comforting, the rhythm of travelling-interviews-shows. There's also fans everywhere, happy exited fans, and while they can be annoying sometimes mostly he loves it.

Nick gathers his strength and manges to move his head a little to the left to see what Howie Is up to now. Howie is apparently less tired than he is because Howie is not only sitting upright but he's also playing with his water bottle, rolling it between his hands.

“Tired?” Howie asks. Nick is to tired to reply but he manges a glare. Howie just smiles at him. Nick really loves Howie a lot but now is not the time to be smiling at him and his pathetic tiredness.

“When were done here I'll drive you home and we can watch The Return of the Jedi and fall asleep halfway through. Sound good?”

That does sound good and Nick manages not only a smile but also an answering nod. Just then the choreographer yells at them to get back in place and Nick slowly drags himself up of the floor.

He has something nice to look forward to now.

miazilla@hotmail.com — Wed, 03 May 2006 21:13:18 GMT

Whoa. Ok so. I can finish fic. Short, drabble fic whit no dialogue at any rate. I have shamlessly nicked a prompt from the comunity 52_flavours. I may do them all, I may not. My writing muse is ficle. Anyway, I present to thee; fic, by yours truly.

Uhm. If anyone is actually reading this journal that is XD

Title: White
Fandom: Popslash (BSB)
Theme no.: 1. Five shades of white
Character(s)/Pairing: Nick/Howie
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I don’t know these people. This is fiction, not a recount of things that have actually happened.
Notes: Yeah. First prompt, first fic. oO;; No I have no idea what I was thinking. Don't know how well it responds to the prompt, or if it does at all, really. XD Mostly a Nick character piece I guess.

Howie was wearing a white cashmere polo shirt today. It was sleek, hugging Howies torso. It looked very soft. Nick wondered what it might feel like to touch. Howie was looking extremely good today in Nicks admittedly not very humble opinion. Then again Howie always looked gorgeous in white. It contrasted beautifully with his skin and dark hair and made him look like he was glowing. Or maybe that was just Nick. Nick spent a lot of time watching Howie. Because Howie did that glowing thing a lot, even when he wasn't wearing white and it was kind of neat actually.

No one ever said anything about his Howie-watching. Maybe no one noticed. Nick snorted to him self. Yeah, right. AJ may not know his head from his ass these days and Brian was to sucked up in Leighanne to notice anything but an impending apocalypse. Kevin, though. Kevin was mister insightful observation man. It was kinda annoying.

Like that one time when he was, oh, sixteen or so, drunk of his fucking ass and flirting with the cute German bartender who actually spoke pretty good English. And the next day Kevin pulled him aside after rehearsals an held a big speech about acceptance and friendship. Nick just sat there and listen politely and when Kevin finally got to the point and asked if he was gay he'd said, “well duh. Can I leave now? 'Cause I was gonna play some ball with Brian and...”

And wasn't that a fascinating trip down memory lane. Point was, Kevin had to have noticed his Howie watching. He hadn't actually said anything but that didn't really mean anything. Nick was sure Kevin knew. The burning question was, did Howie? Howie was perceptive, at least sometimes and Nicks obsessive staring was not subtle. If Howie knew, did that matter? Nick wasn't even really sure he wanted to do more than watch Howie being all glowy.

Hey. Kevin would know if Howie knew. Maybe. It was worth a shot wasn't it? Nick got up from the chair he'd been sprawled in and left the room, looking for Kevin wherever he might be.

As Nick left the room Howie glanced up from the Rolling Stone he'd been reading. Nick looked very good today. Wearing a shirt that was not four sizes too big and non-baggy jeans that did wonders for that ass.... Howie quickly turned back to his magazine hoping he wouldn't be caught staring at Nick. It was happening more and more lately.

miazilla@hotmail.com — Mon, 06 Mar 2006 13:22:39 GMT

Eeeep.

So. I did this drawing. Of a guy. Who is supposed to be AJ. And. Yeah. You like?

Sketch with pencil and paper, inked and colored in PSP9. Semi-base on an outfit from some fanfic.

miazilla@hotmail.com — Wed, 01 Mar 2006 22:46:41 GMT

Feh.

Why am I unable to write dialoge? I start writing, introducing characters and setting and theme and all that. And then when it's time to get people to talk to eachother? Nothing. And I'm unable to finish fic. I have like two pages AJ/Kevin, about half a page Nick/JC and probably lots of older stuff that I'd prefer not to remember. I suck.

miazilla@hotmail.com — Fri, 27 Jan 2006 23:28:10 GMT

Very Bad Thing
By Mia
Rating: pg-13
Characters: Paris Hilton/Jude Law
Summary: Two people have a not-so-random hookup. Drabble.
Disclaimer: I don’t know these people. This is fiction, not a recount of things that have actually happened.

Calling out someone elses name when you’re having sex is usually a Very Bad Thing. This time though, this time it makes them both laugh hysterically. They both did it at almost the same time. None of them can pretend this is really a random hookup anymore, having called out the name of the others ex. And when Jude finally slips out of the hotel room in the bleak light of the dawn he hears Paris call out from the rumpled bed.

”Good luck with Nick”.

He looks back at the shadowy form lying on the bed.

”Thanks. Have fun with Sienna.”

miazilla@hotmail.com — Thu, 29 Sep 2005 16:02:42 GMT

OMG!!!!

Guess what I did last night? I saw the Backstreet Boys live in Globen, Stockholm ^______^ And it was soooo freaking amazing! ^^ I don't think I'll ever stop smiling/squeeing!

It was a nice mix between old stuff and new stuff. God, the new stuff sounds bloody amazing live. I'd have paid just to see Siberia.

And Nick played guitar and Kevin played piano ^_^ It was so prettyfull to watch. And oh! Before they did 'All I Have to Give' AJ was like 'now I'm gonna take you back' and then guess what he said? ^____^ 'I wanna dedicate this song to all the beautiful sexy ladies in my house tonight'. Yayness ^^ Why oh why is my homecoming DVD at my parents place?

My throat is a bit soar today, I screamed that much. And sang along and gah! It was just the most amazing thing EVER!!

You'll have to excuse the exclamation point abuse, but really, I can't describe it without them.

miazilla@hotmail.com — Sat, 27 Aug 2005 03:16:05 GMT

Meme nicked from McTabby :)

The Rules
First, write down the names of 12 characters. Then read and answer the questions.
You can't look at the questions (or click on the cut) until you write down the 12 characters you're going to use.

One: Nick
Two: AJ
Three: Howie
Four: Kevin
Five: Brian
Six: Justin
Seven: Lance
Eight: JC
Nine: Joey
Ten: Chris
Eleven: Aaron
Twelve: Ashley

Have you ever read a Six/Eleven fic? Do you want to? Justin/Aaron.I have! And ist was v. hot. There was also six/one and elevne/one.

Do you think Four is hot? How hot? Kevin is hot. Kevin is so hot he even looks good in a mullet, that's hwo hot he is :P

What would happen if Twelve got Eight pregnant? Ashley/JC mpreg? Lol! There'd be much angsting. And possibly poetry.

Can you rec any fic(s) about Nine? Joey fics? Hmmmm. I don't read much Joey.

Would Two and Six make a good couple? Oh yeah! AJ and Justin. Look at them dancing. Then imagne them in bed together. Oh yeah...

Five/Nine or Five/Ten? Why? Brian/Joey or Brian/Chris. I'd put Brian with Chris I think. They could be short and hot together :)

What would happen if Seven walked in on Two and Twelve having sex? If Lance walked in on Ashley and AJ? He'd join in off course! Sparkly 3 band xover pwp. Yummeh!

Make up a summary for a Three/Ten fic. Chris and Howie has been firends for a long time. What happens when one of them want more?

Is there any such thing as One/Eight fluff? Nick/JC fluff? Yeah. It's kuuuute ^^

Suggest a title for a Seven/Twelve hurt/comfort fic. The Way Back Up

What kind of plot device would you use if you wanted Four to deflower One? Kevin got stuck explaining the birds and bees to Nick who wants a practical demonstration.

Does anyone on your friends list read Seven slash? Lance slash? Sure.

Does anyone on your friends list read Three het? Bwahahahaha! Howie and het! XD Nah jk. I dunno.

Does anyone on your friends list write or draw Eleven? Some, but not nearly enough. The world needs more Aaron fic!

Would anyone on your friends list write Two/Four/Five? Coucinscest/AJ. Lucy has already done that :)

What might Ten scream at a moment of great passion? Something very unexpected that's make his partner either go huh? or start laughing ^^

If you wrote a song-fic about Eight, which song would you choose? Avundsjuk. It's a Swedish song, the title means Jeaulous.

If you wrote a One/Six/Twelve fic, what would the warnings be? PWP. Bad exuse for plot to get the three blond babies in bed.

What might be a good pick-up line for Two to use on Ten? AJ wouldn't have to use a picup line. He'd just stare at Chris who'd follwo him back to AJs hotelroom and... yeah :P

When was the last time you read a fic about Five? Brian? Uh... when I read the latest chapter of Sucker a couple of hours ago.

What is Six's super-sekrit kink? He wants to be spanked for being a naughty little boy ;)

Would Eleven shag Nine? Drunk or sober? Aaron would shag Joey drunk. And Joey would angst muchly over sleeping with someon who's undreage.

If Three and Seven get together, who tops? Howie tops Lance. Mmmm. Pretty pictures in my head :D

"One and Nine are in a happy relationship until Nine suddenly runs off with Four. One, broken-hearted, has a hot one-night stand with Eleven and a brief unhappy affair with Twelve, then follows the wise advice of Five and finds true love with Three." What title would you give this fic? Name three people on your friends list who might read it. Name one person who should write it.

Nick and Joey are in a happy relationship until Joey suddenly runs off with Kevin. Nick, broken-hearted, has a hot one-night stand with Aaron and a brief unhappy affair with Ashley, then follows the wise advice of Brian and finds true love with Howie. I'd call it Nicky and the Sopa Opera Plot.

Dunno who'd read it, but I think MHT should write it.

How would you feel if Seven/Eight was canon? Bazzes cannon? Guuuuuh! I'd die of the hotness. I really would.

miazilla@hotmail.com — Sat, 27 Aug 2005 01:39:43 GMT

Frustration
By Mia
Rating: G
Characters: Kevin
Summary: Kevin doesn’t know what to do.
Disclaimer: I don’t know these people. This is fiction, not a recount of things that have actually happened.

It was hard for all of them. Finding out what Lou had done to them, lying and stealing. Cheating them out of their hard earned money and doing so under the pretense of being a friend, a mentor. The lawsuit was hard for all of them. They were all angry and frustrated and scared.

It was worst for Kevin. He felt guilty. He was the oldest, he was the father figure – never mined that he wasn’t very old himself. He felt like he was somehow responsible for the other guys, for keeping them safe and happy. Now they weren’t happy or safe either, not the way he wanted them to be. He wanted to turn back time so he could do things differently, read the contracts one more time before signing them, something. He hated having to watch the hurt and anger flicker over their faces.

But there was nothing he could do, damn it. He couldn’t turn back time, he couldn’t make this whole mess go away just by wishing it. He couldn’t. All he could do was leave it up to their lawyers. Pray. Pray that they got it all sorted out somehow. Get them away from Lou. It was more than that though. Leave Lou, that was what they all wanted to do, but what if it wasn’t possible? What if leaving Lou meant having to give up on the group? That was… unacceptable.

So he had to trust that the lawyers knew what they were doing. Because no matter how much he wanted to help, to do something he knew he couldn’t. He didn’t know how these things worked, he didn’t have a law degree. So there really wasn’t anything to do.

He tried to spend time with the guys, trying to help them through this. Ease their worries, do whatever he could. It didn’t work out so well though. Nick was scared and trying to hide it, which made him very tightly wound. Afterwards they ended up screaming in each others faces over some silly little thing for the third time in two hours. Kevin decided to avoid Nick for a while.

Howie refused to let himself be comforted, instead he asked how Kevin was doing, how he was feeling. It threw Kevin off a bit but he realized he should have expected it. Howie preferred to do the comforting himself, that was what made him feel at ease. Brian was very quiet now, wasn’t fooling around with Nick like he used to. Kevin tried to talk to him but gave up when he only got one word replies. AJ glared when he tried to approach him. When despite this Kevin talked to him, he was met with a blunt refusal to talk about anything related to the lawsuit.

Kevin went back to praying. Went back to desperately wishing that the whole mess could just sort itself out. He still wanted to do something. Just sitting there being useless wasn’t helping anyone. There was nothing he could do though. Nothing but wait and pray.

Nifty survey thing :)

miazilla@hotmail.com — Sat, 05 Feb 2005 01:28:16 GMT

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miazilla@hotmail.com — Thu, 26 Feb 2004 08:03:16 GMT


Slytherin means never having to say you're sorry

miazilla@hotmail.com — Tue, 17 Feb 2004 14:48:01 GMT

Rant ahead, be prepared ^^

Ok, topic of the day... religion. Touchy subject I know. First I'd like to tell you about how I was raised, religion wise. My parents are both Protestants and all their children (including me) are baptised. Growing up religion wasn't discussed much, or at all really. It just wasn't a big thing. I've been to church a couple of times with my mom when I was 14.... it was interesting inspiring and, well, boring. I guess I just don't believe in god that way... or anyway. Now I don't know what my parent's would say if I came to them one day and told them that I had converted to Islam/Wicca/whatever... I don't think they'd be mad at me and I hope they'd respect and support my decision. The thing is since this is the kind of environment I grew up in I have a very hard time understanding why people argue so much about religion. I've always thought that you should let everyone believe whatever they believe and let everyone practice said beliefs (as long as no one is being harmed). I can understand that you love your religion and you want to tell others about it and even persuade them to join it because it's such an amazing thing for you. But some people don't know were to stop, they think that their religion is the only right one and that everyone'd be better of if they believed in it. And those are the people who most damage a religion and makes other people look at the religion and all those who practice it "because they are all fanatics".

So... that's it for today... comment away ^^

miazilla@hotmail.com — Mon, 16 Feb 2004 15:07:16 GMT


Marriage is love.